Dear Matthew
08-19-01 ~ 10:21 p.m.
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Dear Matthew, It's hard to believe that you've been gone for three whole years now. I've never stopped thinking about you, and I've never stopped wishing you were still here . . . but I'm sure you know that. You were a part of my life that can never be replaced. Please watch over Dad and Barbara . . . I know that today was probably very difficult for them, and I hate that I haven't been back. It breaks my heart every time I talk to dad now, knowing that he lost you, and that he's never really had the chance to see me grow up, so in a sense, he's lost two of his children. I remember all the times he told me that he wanted me to go live with all of you. Maybe things would have been better for you if I had gone to live with you . . . though I don't think I would have held up well if I'd have been there while you were sick. This morning I found something out that started my day off badly . . . and when Lars at work asked me how I was, I almost started crying. I think I did cry when Nolan asked me if I was okay. I know my voice waivered when I answered him . . . I heard it waiver. As the day went on though, I was doing better . . . not now though . . . but I can't cry anymore . . . at most, I got about 10 tears out . . . and they're gone again. I'm going to go to bed now though. I have to work early. I'll always love and remember you, Hollie In Memory of Matthew Raymond Stough 
Oct 17, 1985 ~ Aug 19, 1998 0 comments so far   
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